~Monday~

So it's a Monday
And me feel like me on a Sunday
But never ever forget it's the first day
Of the ever forgotten slave day...

Yay yay yay...

Tomorrow's a Tuesday
But it's now still on a Monday
Though it's five more minutes to the next day
I still have to be on this day...

Yay yay yay.....

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~MORAL OF THE STORY~

Go to sleep lah... Hehehe... :P

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~ Pssttt... Another Obsession... ~

So i have another obsession that's keep playing on my head, which in the end will kill my beauty sleep unless I finish it. The new Indonesion sinetron (Soap opera drama! :D ) called "DEWI".

Ohhhh... Me soooo likey likey it when I accidentally saw it on my visit to JB. Somehow, I do envy them cos they have nice food and even better choice of tv programmes since they can receive tv channels from Singapore and also Indonesia. Not really a big fan of soap operas but this is one nice sinetron, eventhough i saw only one episode... Sighh... (Who bah that 'samseng' guy that likes Dewi???? Me soooo wanna know nie... Driving me nuts! Huhu)

So... back to my trusty all time favourite & multifuctions tv substitute ---> YOUTUBE!

Ohhhh... The wonders of modern technologies... :D

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p/s - In case you don't find me for a few weeks, I'll be in front of my laptop! See you next month!


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~ WORK AKA HOLIDAY... ~

I can't wait to go to JB this Sunday. Never been there and really looking forward to it especially after the audit and everything. Now, still thinking what to pack. Hantam sajalah labu... :D


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~ Working on a Sunday???? ~

Working on a Sunday is soooo not cool but begini lah nie kalo suda kerja sama urang. So, what do you do when you work on a Sunday other than working your butt off???? Apalagi... Ikut lah senarai wajib di bawah tuk... Hehe...

My list of Working on a Sunday that doesn't involve working at all:

1) Pertama tama, musik kana pasang lah sebab takut tu mata pandai tutup palan2... huhu...

2) Kupi & biskut wajib ada sebab once suda start kerja tu, pandai malas tu bajalan. Kalo suda start bajalan, mimang susah mo start kerja balik.

3) Bah... musik suda on & momom pun ada, apalagi FB dulu lah...

4) Suda habis round FB makanya, lapor diri dulu sini... Hehehe...

5) Lapas tu, buli lah start buat karaja.

6) 5 minutes later... jeng jeng jeng... ulangi rutin dari 1 sampai 6 sampai rasa2 tia larat lagi mo stay sini opis... Hahaha...

~ Moral of the Story~

Sepa suruh lambat2 lagi kasi habis karaja... Nahhhh... tengok... Kana datang on a Sunday morning... kotoh... padan muka sendiri... :P

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~ Emotions ~

Ones emotions could play truant to ones health, if you don't deal with it properly. This is what I've concluded from reading a blog from one of my favorite bloggers, Ms Daphne Iking. In her article, she basically stated that if you don't deal with your emotions, be it good or bad, then it will affect your entire mind, body and soul.

Personally, I agree 100% with her statement. Personal experiences have taught me to show a more cool exterior to the whole world. A little bit show of sadness is a total no no to me. I believed that sadness equals to failure, which is hard for me to admit openly that I was wrong although I've acknowledged it deep down in my heart.

How do you deal with being sad, happy, etc when you feel that you're constantly being judge by the whole world? How could you move on when part of you has been hurt so bad by the people you've trusted? How? How?

For the past few years (or maybe forever), these questions have been part of my makeup in being the person of what I am today. I've shoved every emotions I could feel deep down inside me that it has now become such a neurosis in my mind.

I portrayed myself as being happy go lucky with no care in this world. Come night fall, I've turned into a person so out of touch with this world that I could not figure out why I was feeling disoriented with myself.

I've realized it is now taking a huge toll in my relationships, past and present.

One ex bf constantly trying to established emotional connection with me but was always left really disappointed cos I couldn't expressed my emotions to him. And I still do that till today. I'm like an ice queen. I really don't know how to express genuine emotions to others and I will always get defensive over questions regarding feelings.

True. Burying your emotions will take its toll sooner or later. I am a fine example what it can do to you.

Thus, I am writing here today about this topic, not because I am asking for anyone's help nor do I want anyone's sympathy. I believe, that by writing about this topic and me as the subject, will help me to deal with this disease. It might take a day, a week, a month or forever for me to be free to express my feelings once again but I am here to fight for it. When that day arrives, I want to be able to shout with joy and to say that Yes! I've made it... FINALLY.

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~The writer in me ~

I have this sudden urge to write my thoughts and feelings this very morning. Something in my mind has been nagging me to write about this issue.

Contrary to what some people believe, I do NOT write because it's the in thing or because I saw you writing and therefore, I also want to write. You might think that I'm following in the trend because it's glamorous and so on.

Well... Hello there people... I am writing here not because i think I'm the Queen Mother or some fancy smancy smarty people. I write because i love expressing my 2 cents opinions. It might not be informative but what the hell, I am here because i want to!

I never claimed that i luvvvvv writing neither do i want to be some professional writers. I just write because i've been writing diaries since like ages. Now, it's just a change of pastures. Instead of books, i am using electronic methods to commemorate the advancement of our 21st century modernisation of life.

Sighhh... Sometimes people just like to make assumptions. Life is full of @#$%^&**

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