~ I DON'T THIS, I DON'T THAT, I DON'T WANT ~

It is unfortunate when you constantly glue yourself with negativism. You tend to view the world and its people as if they have some ulterior motives to get at you. Call me optimist but hell, I really don't get this kind of people. Why should you be so obnoxiously rude when you haven't even given a chance to that person to proof himself/ herself? Don't you think you might just jump straight to Z by assuming the background of that person when you haven't even talk to that person?

Sigh... I just don't get it? This childish behaviour has gotten up to some degree of stupidity. Time to grow up my friend. Oh... and in the process, please DON'T be rude. It doesn't go well with your makeup!

~ CRAPPY FEELING WITH A CAPITAL "C" ~

It's one of those days that you feel so NOT on top of the world, where you feel like bashing up people like nobody's business. Hell... I feel like bashing myself up now.

I've just realised that I'm not so immune to people's mechanism after all. I seriously thought I was invisible but sighhh... I'm human after all. What do I do in cases like these? I'll usually clammed up myself and refused to even have the remote interest of entertaining the matter. However, I also found out just now how creative I can be in pursuing the matter, MY way.

I just gleefully make the matter worst by using the word "guilty". Ahhhh... Somehow, my day's not so bad after all. Now... I can just sit back and relax and see how the "guilty" cringe like a worm into the center of the earth.

Oh... I know I'm evil with a capital "E" right now. Hell... the title should be Evil theme for all I care but am not so evil that I don't even smile to the world. Then again, being civil by giving a big fat smile is in itself evilness in the making.

Oh... guilty is so in today... No need to be angry... just get EVEN... :P

p/s - author's mood is REALLY evil right now she doesn't have any sane thoughts in her mind other than making the world feeling guilty as hell... :P

~ A NEW PASSION ~

It is true as they say that the older you get, the more you will think things through before you decide on your course of actions. Being a person who was so restless in the past, I've found that nowadays, I don't want to rush into anything, be it sleeping, eating or even watching the tv. Called it old age ( NOT! :P) but I called it as making my peace with myself and the world around me. This is all thanks to my new found passion (though... not soooo new) that is yoga.

Cliche it may seems but yoga has taught me a lot. Where before I was plagued with body issues, low self-esteem and the lists go on and on and on, now I only find myself craving to accomplish that particular poses. Maybe this peace of mind happened because I was distracted from my self- destruct thoughts when doing the poses. Or maybe, it could be also because my schedule is so hectic, I've to drive like a mad woman from point A to point Z! :P

Suffice to say, yoga has given me a new lease in my life and I definitely will never trade places with anyone else. Now... Could anyone pleaseeee tell me what is Adho Mukha Savnasana all about? :P


P/s - For more info on yoga, you should visit this website on http://www.yogajournal.com.

Take everything you like seriously, except yourselves.

Rudyard Kipling
British (Indian-born) author (1865 - 1936)

~ LEARNING (AND TEACHING) AS WELL AS YOU KNOW HOW: WHY IS IT SO VERY DIFFICULT? ~

Been reading the first of the many parts of this wonderful article by Dick Allwright, as part of the coming lecture this Sat.

Here are the things of what I've discovered so far. Learning (and teaching, mind you) is so hard! You might think that you've done a great job when in actual fact, your students have no idea what you've been babbling all this while. Sigh... How can we solve this problem that is basically not only face here but probably (sic) also by millions across the globe.

Call me ignorant (unfortunately, i am! Sigh...) or a fool but all these while, I've been under constant illusions on the greatness of my teaching methods. Although deep down inside me, the seeds of doubt are constantly worming itself to the surface, unfortunately (here we go again... Sigh!) I've happily been suppressing it, again and again and again.

I wonder, what do my students think of me? I wonder, why have i been thinking that mostly all of them are not capable of any sane rationale thoughts. They're probably more intelligent compared to any one of us but their situations might not permit them to fully developed their potentials as learners. Alas, the word under- representing themselves will haunt me for the rest of my lives! (melodramatic is so in season now... :P)

Well... enough for now. There are more drama, self- pondering, self-loathing and all the selves in the world that i need to think about while reading the next part of my "self-discovery" journey to the NOT so-great-after-all me... :P Will write my next thoughts after digesting the bit of info later.

Have a nice day and adieu for now. :D